About My Journey

Matrix Reimprinting and EFT resolves past issues that have influenced our thinking, usually subconsciously in a way which is very gentle and yet is so very effective that the results at times seem almost miraculous. In my work with addicts I regularly came across people who repeated the same actions but had no idea why, they also had intrusive past memories that effected their self worth. Experts talked about the gene that makes someone more likely to become a gambler or an alcoholic, but I kept thinking to myself, why did they become addicted to something negative and not something positive, like scuba diving or starting a business, or playing a music instrument to world class standard.

A picture kept popping up in my mind of an old vinyl record that was stuck and repeating the same piece of music again and again. This often happened to old records and not only showed up my age, but made me think about all of the internal stuck records that I had been playing in my mind, and how do I get them to stop playing; The bullying at school, the abuse, the betrayal by friends, my critical father, the teachers telling me I was not good enough, my mothers unprovoked temper tantrums and many more, some memories were very powerful, and as I got older, they seemed to effect me more, I could see how drugs, drink, smoking, any prop in life could numb down these feelings down, particularly when your young, but as you I became older they started to leak out more and more. The conscious mind often forgets what happened that makes us feel the way we do, but the subconscious remembers everything. But how can I tackle past traumas effectively I thought to myself?

Well this was quite a journey and eventually a quest for knowledge.

I was brought up an only child by a dysfunctional family, I knew they loved me but my parents were workaholics so we rarely did normal family activities, there were many temper tantrums and lots of arguing, I remember feeling that I had to be the responsible one at quite an early age. We also had an extended family that relied heavily on us including my blind grandmother and my an uncle who was extremely difficult to say the least, there always seemed to be a lot of pressure around. I was bullied and abused right the way through my school years, and this is where most of my flash backs came from.

I saw 2 psychiatrists about 7 years ago, since my life felt like it was completely out of control, I was gambling and drinking way too much, but all they wanted to do was give me drugs to take, I thought there has got to be another way and I started to get some counselling and a 12 step recovery program which resolved many of my issues, but the flashbacks continued and my destructive personality was always ready to make a mess of things given half a chance. Having worked for some 10 years as a private medical health consultant, I turned my back on conventional medicine and started to look at complimentary and alternative therapies, I studied Anatomy and physiology and then went on to do holistic massage.

As I looked into the various therapies and techniques that were out there, many of which I found to be very valid, I also found what seemed to be mixes of bogus science or mumbo jumbo and obscure mysticism, which were packaged to look very impressive, so I had to be very careful, not wanting to be sucked into any old gimmick with a fine looking outer veneer. What I was really looking for was some solid scientific facts that were supporting some of these newer techniques. fortunately I have a very open and curious mind which kept me going and I became quite obsessed with my research for the truth. I also came across groups that promised the world, sometimes with a new age guru leader, I’m sure that some of these organisations had benefits for its followers but on the whole they seemed rather cultish, after all, my goal was a search for freedom and a powerful life, not a new dependence.